hey blog - we took the kids to lebanon valley tonight - it was a fun night. actually had this woman stop me as we were leaving and say that she sat behind us all night evening long and she was watching how i treated my kids and she thought i was a great mother. whoa! i kinda felt embarrassed. isid thank you, thank you very much, that's so nice of you to say and then i thought - wow, you were watching me? what did i do to catch your attention? yikes.
but it's quite funny because it seems that nearly every night i'm having a fight/argument with S or T. J is a good boy, he never fights with his mommy...lol just tonight, again...i'm arguing with S....over nothing really. she just takes everything i say as an insult and i don't get it. but whatever...a stranger at the racetrack said i was a good mommy...lolol
got a very odd email from one of my sisters in law last night. the one married to the incarcerated brother. my brother, apparently, asked his wife to email me and ask that *I* put aside my differences with my mother and call her tomorrow for her birthday. i was wondering what version of events he heard - hers...or the truth. it doesn't matter, i explained to my SIL that i will not call. i might be wrong, i might be childish, but my heart is sooooo broken and bruised from alifetime of "stuff" from this woman - lessons i learned from her that is so painful to unlearn because i hurt people i love. ::::sigh:::: so no. i won't call.
and i would like to say that i was right!!!! it's such a relief to have figured it all out. for weeks now i've had really bad bellyaches and then i have subsequent really bad "office" trips. i said to myself one day last week that if only i could stop eating.....well i didn't actually STOP eating but i cut way back starting last night and up through this morning. like - i was practically anorexic and my bellyache decreased, the bathroom trips didn't decrease last night (didn't get to go to bed til 2 am) but after only having a 2 inch chunk of banana for b'fast and that's all....well,, to make a short story long.....if i don't eat - i take less opium and i don't ummm...potty as much. of course eating a regular dinner, snacking at the race track etc etc, really proved my point again in that when i eat - i die a painful death...lol so for real..if you have any tips on how i can stop eating i'd really appreciate it if you'd share them. i'd love to stop eating.
i feel bad for the naughty thought i had last night. it's just that there a few things that are my favorite things, things that make me alittle hot under the collar and that was one of them. i didn't do anything...and i wouldn't. but i still felt bad.
i read that CA has put on hold the allowing of gay marriage thing again. i'm so frustrated by this "debate"....by both sides!! i mean really...what gives??
to the gays: if you have found someone to love, and they love you back and you love each other enough to want to get married - does it matter if you have a piece of paper to "prove" it? you already get all theentitlements that straight marriages are entitled to. and why would you want to get married in the first place? don't you read the statistics? more than 50% of marriages end in divorce! why would you set yourself up for failure like that?
and to the anti-gay marriage people: really, why do you care so much if gay people want to get married. with the exception of religious views, which i don't think should count because we all don't follow the same religion - the only reason there is to be against it is hatred....soooo.....so what do we do with all the gay people? put them on an island (like that episode of the twilight zone (eye of the beholder) where all the "ugly" people had to go to)
(really watch the clip if you haven't seen it already - rod serling was soooooo way ahead of his time!!!!!!)
well, wow!! i'm finding that i'm falling asleep sitting her while i blog. either i'm really boring tonight or i'm really tired. maybe i'll be so tired that i'll actually fall asleep and stay asleep and not wake up til tomorrow.
nitey nite blog!!
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