hydrogenated vegetable oil...and stuff...

hi blog,

two words. you are wrong (not you blog).  but i didn't make any remarks and for that, i'm proud of myself. :::patting my back::: but (in the psuedo-privacy of my blog) ....that was totally out of place, not relative to the conversation and i don't care. :o)~ why do people feel the need to say stuff like that?  it's precisely the reason i am the way i am...because of people like that.

dude - it's 3am and i'm in so much freaken pain i can't sleep (too early for a sleeping pill...lol) this pain's been going on for 2 weeks now, a little more than 2 weeks....waxing and waning. waxing and waning.  i haven't journaled properly (damn me!) so i can't tell what set this off (stopping the excess meds maybe?)/  i think the only thing left to do is stop eating for a few days to see if i can recenter myself (i hope?).  it's probably all the advil i'm taking because i'm in pain eating a hole in my stomach because i'm in pain...from the hole in my stomach...LOL

tomorrow...err..today - my little girl is going to be changing her little girl school savings account to a grown up account. she's been dying for a debit card! lol i'm so excited for her!!!

side notes: you are blocked from my FB idiot. do you think i'm going to take parenting advice from a woman who ships her child off to the highest bidder?  not likely. and you! if you hate your mother so much, wash your hands of her. keep my husband out of your BS.

i've become a pretty good food label reader as of late and i've discovered that a lot of our foods that we wouldn't think so, are made with hydrogenated vegetable oil.  our bodies aren't meant to be eating crisco on a daily basis. our bodies aren't meant to be eating a lot of the crap it eats. jeesh!  i'm very scared to start the nutritionist portion of my higher education...LOL

it all started with the peanut butter...something caught my attention so i read the label and sure enough - our peanut butter isn't just peanut butter...it's peanuts and HVO.  wtf??  has it always been like that? i feel bad feeding it to my children...i mean, peanut butter and jelly is a main staple in children's diets!  it's so wrong!! thankfully our society is on an "organic" kick and i was able to find peanut butter that was just peanuts.  no one really likes it because the consistency is a lot different than the other peanut butter. but they'll get used to it..and then, on sunday i was icing shelby's birthday cake and there was a little icing left in the tube so i licked it and turned the tube over to read "hydrogenated vegetable oil".  omg!!  for real??  cake frosting, too??

so needless to say i've got a lot of pantry cleaning to do.  high fructose syrup and hydrogenated vegetable oil. what's next? hamster shavings in my cream of wheat? gah!!

so i guess i'll try to take a quarter of a xanax to see if i can get my tummy and backside to calm down. im exhausted enough to sleep - just leave me alone so i can sleep...lol